I noticed I became too frighten by my experience of the panic I felt of being very much detail of being sexually aroused, I planned to post today a post to Katharina Schuttler but for two reasons I didn’t, first, I wanted to write song lyrics to perfectly explained how I felt but as a less factor, I felt tired, I feel a little disappoint in myself, for holding myself back and I dislike the symbolism I wasn’t trying to portrayed. I have noticed, I would rather much more with excitingly pleasure be sexual teased by Katharina Schuttler and be frustratingly aroused them to not have any communication which I feel horrible as I felt very lonely and depressed, but by hearing Katharina Schuttler, I felt relived again and I had much internally rejoice of becoming sexually aroused and I missed the arousal caused by the happiness of being frustrated but I have noticed to comprehend the vagueness of female arousal very differently, it is actually based on how the Bible is written to be read in multiple meanings, and because the vagueness of Katharina Schuttler flirting, besides of missing being happily aroused by Katharina Schuttler, I noticed, I was behaving in too much fear, as to take too much of a break of my communication with Katherine Schuttler, it is not that I have mistrust by being very emotionally aroused felt very uncomfortable but now I have noticed I would rather experience the fearful panicky than to be alone. God has actually held me because basically this is the same type of response I desire to convey but I had difficulty of how to formulate my emotions in written description, that was why I wanted to explain myself by song lyrics. I wanted to convey the intense feeling of newess of emotionally experience the flirts from Katharina Schuttler, actually the newness is recurring sexual arousal of a deep break of sexual tense sexual arousal right after an ejaculation. So am very happy and very satisfied by your very detailed flirts of which I feel extreme living loveless!!! You know what else is Biblical, today, I read the book of Ephesians, God explained man love for his wife at to Christ’s love for his church and the description of love I feel for Katharina Schuttler is totally based on the description of love of a man for his wife and the description of Jesus has for his church.